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Journal Entry: May 02
May. 2nd, 2007 07:01 pmOkay, calm now.
Been doing a bit of soul-searching, actually. I looked up the word "neutrality" today. I mean, I knew what it meant, more or less, but I felt like it would help somehow looking at it. In a way, it did.
The Sanctuary... all matter of people go in and out. Heroes, villains... and yet somehow they coexist, because they simply leave their actions behind them when they come. It is, generally, meant to be a peaceful place, even though there are conflicts at times. That's the spirit of the place, anyway.
Some... he's done a lot of good things for me. He let me borrow his cave when I didn't want to stay in the Sanctuary, has cooked so much good food for us. Every instinct in me tells me he's a good guy, and yet I still panicked when I found out what he'd done while LOLed. He doesn't deserve that. And, well, Kaa and Li are right: I can't judge him by the standards of humans, because he isn't. He's a Grue. And I'm positive that if he didn't have to do what he does to survive, he wouldn't. It's said that humans are the only ones who kill for no reason. I'm not sure how true that is, but I'd take Some, maneating and all, over Gant and his inhuman disregard for life any day.
So Some, if you can read this... I'm sorry. I really am.
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On another note, I can't decide whether my alternate drives me nuts or fascinates me. There's something interesting about being given the opportunity to bitchslap sense into MYSELF. And I think history is already irreversibly altered for the two of them; Naruhodo is finding out things about Mitsurugi far earlier than I ever did. Still, it's kind of weird.
Been doing a bit of soul-searching, actually. I looked up the word "neutrality" today. I mean, I knew what it meant, more or less, but I felt like it would help somehow looking at it. In a way, it did.
The Sanctuary... all matter of people go in and out. Heroes, villains... and yet somehow they coexist, because they simply leave their actions behind them when they come. It is, generally, meant to be a peaceful place, even though there are conflicts at times. That's the spirit of the place, anyway.
Some... he's done a lot of good things for me. He let me borrow his cave when I didn't want to stay in the Sanctuary, has cooked so much good food for us. Every instinct in me tells me he's a good guy, and yet I still panicked when I found out what he'd done while LOLed. He doesn't deserve that. And, well, Kaa and Li are right: I can't judge him by the standards of humans, because he isn't. He's a Grue. And I'm positive that if he didn't have to do what he does to survive, he wouldn't. It's said that humans are the only ones who kill for no reason. I'm not sure how true that is, but I'd take Some, maneating and all, over Gant and his inhuman disregard for life any day.
So Some, if you can read this... I'm sorry. I really am.
--
On another note, I can't decide whether my alternate drives me nuts or fascinates me. There's something interesting about being given the opportunity to bitchslap sense into MYSELF. And I think history is already irreversibly altered for the two of them; Naruhodo is finding out things about Mitsurugi far earlier than I ever did. Still, it's kind of weird.
